A new death

Dying a new death everyday

Nights go by with hopes of a new day

Twilight awaits with hopes of a new dawn

But every dawn breaks with a new death

Death I see

Death I die everyday

Life I hardly remember

Everyday creeps in with thorns of pain

Pain I take, with a hope to see the dawn

With smile wide

Smiles – I try to spread around me

But pain takes over sometimes

I lose everything, but hope

And here dies my hope at every dawn

Live – Yes I do

To see the loved around - happy

I count on them – But

In pain I stand alone

Hands I find all around

But pain I can’t share

As I die a new death everyday

Greedy to live – Greedy to smile

Greedy for happiness

But here I drown in pain everyday

I mutter to death

Haven’t you had enough from me?

Death laughs! More to go!

Miracle I hope for

Every dusk clings on to hope

To find a new day – A new life

But I lay defeated – Every dawn

Hope – That’s all that I have

Dusk dies with me

May be tomorrow

Death shall finally die!

And I shall LIVE!

Love you Dad!

Father,

Conversations we have never had

We saw each other and parted

Everyday

Anything I needed, I found Mother

So much that, even when I wanted to tell you

Anything, I told it to her

Important I never felt you were to me

Money is all that I got from you

But the day you left

Left for eternity

I understood

That you have made me

A man that I am today

I learnt to stand upright

Work hard and live life

I learnt to be a man

To love people

Stand by anyone in times of distress

I learnt from you

Guard and love the woman you love

I learnt from you

Sweat it out and earn for the family

Stand up against the unjust

Dream and make it true

Breathe and live life

I learnt everything from you

How wrong I was when I thought you weren’t important to me

I look back at the pieces of my life and

Realize that I learnt to walk when you held my hand

Even when I fell, you stood by me, held me and

Inspired me to walk

Now I walk

I walk to life

I miss you now, If only I could talk to you

To thank you for laying your life for me

To thank you for giving me life and making me ‘Me’

But….you have gone, gone forever into the unknown world

Leaving me and telling me to live on my own

I miss you dad, how could I think you were not important to me

How could I think that you have given me nothing but money

I wish you were here, for me to tell you something I had never told you-

Love you Dad.

My Baby!!

Not born from my womb

But how special you are to me!

Holding my finger tip – there

You try to stand up

Clasping my hands,

Standing on my feet – there

You learn to walk!

The umbilical might not have connected us

But here you are – So

Special to me!

My mind’s thinking of you –

All the time and

Here I am in the middle of a dream,

Waking up suddenly to see if you are safe!

Happiness and joy,

That’s what you have brought to me!

Now I learn – my happiness

Knows no bounds – when you chuckle!

When you scream, when you walk those tiny steps

When you crawl fast unto me

For a big hug!

My happiness…

My small little bundle of joy! My baby!

My happiness truly knows no bounds –

When you call me ‘Ma’!

My little baby!

Here I Fly

Please don’t go, please don’t leave me – I said

He still left

Life suddenly seemed cruel and bad

A look at the clock at 8 everyday

With an endless wait for a call

For a small little message

With months passing by

Lifted myself from self pity

I knew I had to smile, I did

But frowned inside

I wasn’t faking it, I wasn’t lying

But some things just have to happen

I was left in the middle of the runway called life

With no explanations

But I knew I had to fly

Occasional guilt trips and regrets

But that should never bog me down

Like a song, I never knew why I liked you so much

But now you put me through all this pain

Just for one big mistake of mine of liking you

I felt heaven with you in my life

And suddenly the world I was standing on was pulled off my feet

I fell, I know I did

But like a great soul once said, Time heals

It did

The clock strikes 8 everyday and it goes unnoticed

It’s a clock! It has to strike every hour!

I look at it this way now!

But walking through this, I discovered something

Life will never stop for me

It will go on

Nothing will bog me down

It will only lift me and I shall fly again

Every fall would end becoming wind under my wings and

Here I fly again!

Thanks to you for the pain

Now I fly and promise myself would surely find me

At every leap and fall!

Here I fly again!

Daddy, I love you

Daddy, I love you

When ma’s out, you call me into the room

You ask me to lie down beside you,

Why daddy?

You then run your hands all over me

I know not why

I know not anything

I do not like the feeling

You fondle every bit of me

I ask you why? With my eyebrows raised

And you scream at me

Scared I lay quiet

Every morning I pray to God,

That - ma shouldn’t go out today

I am hurt daddy

Ah you give me so much pain

But God doesn’t hear my prayer

Ma goes out everyday

I am bleeding daddy

I can’t stop my tears

You scream at me and ask me not to tell it to anybody

But it hurts daddy, I am in pain

I can’t even cry

I love you daddy

But I do not know what you are doing to me

You hurt me everyday daddy

Where do I go and let myself open?

I hate you daddy – I am hurt everyday

I fear you daddy – I love you no more

Your presence makes me shiver

I know not why

But I am scared of you daddy

You hurt me everyday

Ma, I wish you knew my pain

I wish you were here

I wish you never went

And I wish I could tell it happily

Like all my friends –

“I love you daddy”.