In the larger scheme of things

The empire stands majestic and tall.

Brick by brick you laid.

With your own hands.

Not caring for the wounds.

"The empire must shine", you said.

It shone. Brightness taking away your sight.

You still smiled. Blood and sweat you put in.

Now unflinching stands the empire.

And you stand invisible.

You are just a tiny object in the larger scheme of things.

Unseen. Unheard.

Holding On

 The grip slipped away, but she still holds on

So many reasons to let the grip slip away, but she holds on

Not knowing whether her fingers would give up

But her mind and heart not wanting to give up

Is it time yet to let go?  

Her bruised elbows and knees from the last time, shouting out loud to let go

Her hands, could she trust them completely?

Will she let go? Should she let go?

Dancing melancholy and pain

Yet, she holds on with a lying smile

Trying to hide her pain and struggle 

Will she let go? Should she let go?

Last Dance

Endless ocean, breeze and waves playing symphony,
With the moonlight reflecting in the waters
Thank you for coming, my love
One last time we meet,
dancing in the moonlight
One of a kind
Throwing away all worries, hopes and dreams
We dance away in the moonlight
Not wanting know what life would be tomorrow
Today is what would matter.
Dancing the night away
I hold these moments with you, in my mind
And will forever find them special
Minds over body!
So much special that this meet brings smiles and no tears.
Today, will be my forever.

Innocent love!

Rollercoastered the world,
exploring the unknown, the excitement,
the love and the fear.
Years gone by, but none loved like you did;
The love with no expectations,
The love you let slip by, out of selfless love,
Innocent years and cherished memories,
forever a happy place to be
Never a touch or a kiss!
Peace, calm and butt load of smiles!
That's what it was and that is what it will be
for the rest of my eternity!

For love's sake

Fingers slip away from mine
For want of excitement
For want of wicked love
For want of listening to praises
Sound of shattering vows, a melody

Ask how it feels to be thrown away
Ask how it feels to be forgotten
Ask how it feels to be alone
Sound of shattering vows, painful
Pure and precious they were

Scars left all over
Forgive, can I?
Replaced I was, even if for a while
Walking through bouts of self doubt
Self pity and loathe
Chaotic mind, splitting ache
Forgive, can I?
Can scars ever fade?
Forgive can I?

For love's sake, forgive can I?
Till death do us apart, forgive can I?

Ripples

The ripple in the water
taking the calm away
ruffled hair and sleeves up
running amidst the silence
with chaos in mind and
ripples beneath feet
The strings humming tunes
The rains waiting to dance with the winds
The sun there bright and
the clouds tearing up the sky
peeping on to watch the ripples
The ripples of chaotic happiness!

Selfless love

A fear of being thrown away
A fear of being shut off
A fear of being left alone
But selfless love it is.

I withdraw my love
For the fear of being broken
I know not revenge, greed, harm
Just a handful of love
Slipping through my fingers
Not being able to hold onto

I withdraw
Open my fist, with all my heart
I keep aside my heart and wish you the world
Happiness I wish you, from the bottom of my heart
Goodbye my love.

Before the rains..

Before the rains, I shall meet you, my love
Torn apart, we are, between obstinacy and love
The dreams woven together by us - Unworn
The rains would wash away my being
No more, would my existence be
Before the rains, I shall meet you, my love

Blame I take by everyone, of being impure
Judged by the minds - of being sinful
For all I did was, give myself to love
The minds of my tribe is here to give me a better life - so they say
But wrapped in you was never my sin to me
Pure I felt never this much,
when i gave my life to you
But the rains are here to wash my life away
Before the rains, I shall meet you, my love

Give me my life

'Give me my mum' 'Give me my dad'
Cried the girl
Take my arms, legs and eyes
But give them back to me
For I am their's and they are mine
I breathe them
And today with just one knife and bullet - you ended it all
Take my eyes, but give me my mum
Take my arms and legs, but give me my dad
My heart's weeping and screaming
Falling and breaking
Give them to me
I dont want any riches nor do I want any of the money
Why did you take them away from me
Take my heart, take my head
But why did you take my mind?
They live in there, give them to me
End me now or this life will never forgive you
End the world, for my world is dead
End me now
Shoot me - Give me the gun
I am shooting myself
Here I go - To let you know
That you will never be forgiven
Here I go.

Bits and pieces

Pieces of dreams lying on the floor
He gathers them all
To find her gone
Castles of the dreams they built
Destiny they named themselves
Infinite happiness they discovered
With the breeze flying through their hair
Endless smiles smiled
Memorable times spent
The walk into the unknown he could not stop
She walked
Walked away from the dreams and the castles
Reflections of the times he would never find
A ray of light piercing the clouds
touching him and giving him the smile
He prays
Still prays.

Thanks!

That rainy night, under the dark sky
Walked the mind, free of all worries
Hand in hand with a smile
A beautiful smile, taking all the blues away
Each step into the puddles cheerily
Splashing the slush on selves
The white fading into the slush
A walk just into the unknown
directionless, aimless - Happy
A hand that held tight
The steps that would always walk along
Blood we share,
Womb that owned us - the same
How happy the mind is to share this life with you
A small little thanks to you
for the walk, for the fun
and for always being there!

Scarred for life

Scarred for life
Mirror breaks into millions
Hate is all that I see in it
Detest the reflection of myself
Defeated by my own self
Hated by own self
Take the life in me
Give me the least love to love myself
Set me free from the hate
I am scarred for life
In death I want to sleep
Death, dont look into my eyes
For I am vile
I deserve the hate from death
I no more breathe
For I am wretched by my soul
Death, will you take me?
Life, Will you give me away to death?
I cant look into my eyes
I cant look into me
My eyes hate me, My mind hates me, I hate me
Scarred for life is this life
In death, would the scar vanish?
Death - Take me into you
I live no more
Scarred dead for life.

My Dear Sky

The world looks upto you and find you so high
Shielding the earth in the beautiful blue and
In all the other hues
Tall and colourful, you stand
Holding your family tight –
The Sun, The Stars and The Earth that you blanket
So blessed I feel, to be a part of you
Light, water and beauty you give to life
Star I am, A small bright star
My brightness knows not my span of life
Of all the people who hold greater importance in your life
I am after all – just a small star who knows not its life
But tight I hold you, dear I hold you to me
In pride I stand – to be a part of you
Falling stars are a beauty to all
But it is an end to the star’s life
I know not when I will fall and die
But reluctant I am to leave you
Since in love I am, with you
I hold you dear, I hold you tight
And forever will – in life and in death
My dear Sky.

Acha

Life you gave me, Love you gave me
All that I could ask for, you gave me
Even before I ask for it
When I cry, you are hurt more than I
Sitting by your feet, I am truly happy
You taught me to walk, every step with a smile
And if I fall, you are more hurt
But you always put a smile on me
You went hungry so that my hunger could vanish
‘Molu’ – you called me. And every time you do
It sounds like a part of you
I am, a part of you
You always told me to live happy
With no regrets to this smile called life
You held my hand and taught me to pray
Our usual ritual of praying, always brought smiles to us
Any dream I have, you always make it possible
For me to live the dream
You taught me to help anyone in need
You taught me how to believe in friendship even when your best friend
Greedily stabs you in your back
You taught me that the best would happen if you do your best
You taught me hard work
Every struggle of yours to live life inspires every cell in me
You taught me to think before every step
You taught me to love family and never forget respect for all
Father, you’re my blessing
You have been my light, my life and
I am truly blessed to call you ‘Acha’.

Howl of pain

Serenity and peace is all that I dream of
Breathing - I am
But eyes open and I see
Blood all over
Bombs thrown in, to break lives around
To break minds
Innocents die
Lives whipped in the name of religion
Mind wonders which God says KILL
Father cries over the loss of his son
Life never would let him forget the last words of his son
“Father, Are you asleep? Where’s Ma?”
Tender years unable to realise the loss of birth givers
A day to celebrate the day of its birth,
And the tender child is ‘gifted’ with its parent’s death
Deserve, does it?
Save the home – The soldiers do
Losing their lives – to the cruelty bleeding the home
Ruthlessness rejoices seeing the blood and broken lives
Life – is all that matters to the lives
But cruelty stings the poison deep in
Silence in cries, Agony in tears
Shriek in hush-hush dead air
Cry of anguish and loss
Quiet in chaos – melancholy
No mind of any God said KILL,
Yet lives take lives.

Glad we met!

Chirpy days and sunny nights!
Smiling through the walkway
Looking around to find you
In a corner of my eye
That sparkle of joy, That tinge of red
Days fly away, waiting for that smile to fade
Waiting to check if the smile’s just for a while
But here comes the smile with every dawn
But here comes the rays of the smile every dusk
Peppy, Perky – I find me
You aren’t mine, yet you are
Glad I am, that we met
Just a handful of times yes,
But Thanks for the silent smiles
No one, but you gave them to me
I am here always, when you need
I’ll just wait for life to play
Its part of the game
Good, if we meet.
Thanks again!

My Kingdom

King, I am
Dynasties and States I own
My kingdom
I rule
Wars I fought
Bloodshed I have seen
Empires I built
Treasures I earned
Silver, Jewels, Emerald – I have it all
Slaves – I own
My empire
I wake up – to realize
I am the King of my own world
I am awake now
I am nothing
Nor do I own anything
Emperor of my kingdom
Was all that I was
I wake up.

Wait

A walk in the rain,
Raindrops chilling the innermost inside
Shivering inside
But eyes reflecting smiles
Cold around but shivering happy inside
Every step taken to reach warmth soon
Numb feet
But walking, running happy
Happiness untold
Pressed inside
Waiting to be told
Song on the lips all the time
Days waiting the endless wait
To the walk of life
Hands reaching for life
Is this life?
Happiness is what this is!
But is this life?
The wait continues to discover the answer
But smiles all the way walking hand in hand
With the wait
Warmth – come come come!



**To my friend who said i write nothing happy**

**Rob**

Rob died,
Life, he asked for
Life, he wished for
But life, never cared
to see what Rob would want
would wish
Life, still jets
And Rob hoped for another day
Every other day
Life treated him worser
Rob, never forgot to smile
Rob smiled
Rob sang
He said, 'I'd have to go anyway, why not smile, have fun and go?'
Rob dreamt of a concert
Where Music would take over all of him
Rob desperately waited for that day
Rob wanted death to come after that day
His Dream
Finally, there's the day
Rob played music like he never did
Music finally took over him
Rob and his dream - Music
Rob smiled again
Rob smiled again
Rob smiled with the music
Lived
Lived his dream
Lived and lived
And soon, death came
Death - Thanks for giving me the time
Thanks for the life
Thanks for the day
My dream, My wish
Now, you can take me.

Silence

Silence
Silence in the room
Takes away all her smiles
Noise, noise is all that she wants
Music is all that she loves
And music fills her life
Every moment of hers is filled with music
Music is where she finds solace
The good old radio in the room –
The source of her music
Played everything she wanted
She learnt music
She sang along the radio
She jumped with the songs
Cried with the songs!
Laughed with the songs
Screamed with the songs
Sang aloud with songs
Sometimes, quietly listened to the songs
When pearls of tears crept out of her eyes
Running through her cheeks and when touched her lips
A smile slowly crept in!
Music – made her live
Her room was the ‘home’
And music was her life
The radio died one day
And the room went silent
Silent, dead silent!
Silence suddenly took over her love
Silence suddenly took over her life
Silence – She hated
But now, all that she had was silence
And the good old radio gone forever
Dead and gone
And silence – ALIVE!